It hurts super bad that I just don’t have that one person I can complete fall back onto. No one there to ask how my day was or to end my day off with. No one I can be like “wow I have so much homework and work is too much and I feel like this may not pay off” and their response would just be “baby it’s fine you’re doing great. It’ll all pay off.” But why should I expect that? It’s not like I deserve it in any way. But I’m allowed to feel I guess.. Quietly this time, however. 😔
I don’t know all the right things to say, and for that I am sorry.
I don’t always do the smartest thing, but I promise you I’m trying.
Most of the things that I do, are in no way related to you.
Unless I am trying to fix the mess, from when I had to get things off my chest.
Or when I try to earn your trust, and convince myself I am not just somebody’s lust.
I desperately try to get some attention, a little love and maybe affection.
I feel so alone, so alone, and that’s why I’m always wrong.
I am wrong to believe anyone next would be special.
Am I wrong to hope that someday I’ll be somebody’s exception?
How do you know you’re in love?
- —COMMON: Man, I know I’m in love when I think about her a lot and I’m finding ways to get to that person. Even though I gotta work, even though I gotta take care of other responsibilities, I’m like yo, when am I gonna fly out and see that person? I look forward to seeing them.
- —KENDRICK LAMAR: How do you know you’re in love? When your heart feels it instead of your mind and your penis don’t. You know, it’s deeper than that… That’s when you know.
- —PETE ROCK: Oh man you feel it right here, *touches heart*, right there, it’s like cupid’s shooting you in the heart, that shit’s just BOOW! Lots of people say they don’t believe in love at first sight, but I do, it’s happened to me.
- —A$AP ROCKY: You know you in love cuz you don’t want nobody else but that person. You know, that’s how you know for sure. Like you could see a million other bad bitches, but you know, but it don’t even matter, you stuck.
- —BIG BOI: Your heart flutters a little bit, you like to kiss on the mouth a lot, your neck get hot when you kiss on the mouth, that type of stuff. Stuff like that, yea.
- —QUESTLOVE: I THINK WHEN THAT PERSON CONSUMES YOU.